Ok, so today was a setback.. but I gotta power through!!

I love school, but I also hate school.

This art history exam is so unnecessary. I would rather be tested in any other way than being forced to remember about 120 very specific dates. I am fucked. I am so, unbelievably fucked, because there is no way I will remember all of that by Wednesday.

I also have two books due tomorrow, neither of which I plan on reading.

I haven't done reading for Anthropology of Media in two weeks.

Fuck school. There is way too much bull shit to make it worth it.

If you want to be my friend *smiles*, then just comment and I'll add you.  No problem, right?

See you on my friends list!

*flies away*

I don't know how to explain this one, but this is
what your fate is. Hey, at least you're cute.

Maybe that's your fate. You're fated to be cute,
and you have good taste.


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Cough...random...cough!

My head is empty of creativity.

I haven't written anything in a while.

Last Friday I responded to a scenario prompt...but...I never got past just writing the premise in the form of a poem. I didn't add anything to it that made it my own...it's incomplete. I don't know what's wrong with me. I sit down for ten minutes trying to think of what to write, but I've just got nothin.

HELP!!!!!!!

*sobs*

Omg, the Yeah Yeah Yeahs rock!

\m/ \m/

*uses new symbol for incredibly good music...it kind of looks off, though*

Thanks stuckinasquare for recommending them.  I only have their single.  BUT THEY'RE STILL AWESOME! 

Note to people who have only heard their song Maps: there is SO much more!  Ack...they're great.

Okay...I've vented all the energy.  Time to go!  WOOSH!

*flies away*

Ack...my head hurts! I've been trying to think of movie plots for a while now, and I'm empty of creativity! I have absolutely no idea what I'd write. Maybe I just need to live more. OR...watch more movies.

I kind of want to do my first film in a foreign language, not sure why.

Anyways, I'm going to start going a quote of the day type thing just for fun. I always find/hear good quotes but I never write them down. It makes me mad, heh. So here's today's:

"There's only a thin red line between the sane and the mad."
-Old Middlewestern Saying

So...Lost in Translation (my favorite movie of the year and of all time) won for Best Original Screenplay. I'm glad, very very glad. And Lord of the Rings tied with Titanic and Ben-Hur as the most honored film of all time in AMPAS history with 11 wins (winning all 11 of its nominations, making it one of maybe two movies to ever make a clean sweep like that). I'm glad. *smiles*

I also liked the fact that Charlize Theron won. She made me cry within a two-minute clip. That's good acting.

I'm a little disappointed Bill Murray didn't win, but oh well! Sean Penn was also very good (maybe a little over-the-top at times, but good).

The only thing that really made me mad was the fact that Renee Zellweger won the Oscar for Best Supporting Actress. Shohreh Aghdashloo COMPLETELY deserved that over her. Patricia Clarkson had a stronger body of work this year. There was no doubt that Holly Hunter played her role with astounding grace. And Marcia Gay Harden was the best of the ensemble in Mystic River. But...Zellweger was SO over-the-top and lacked any form of subtlety. But on the upside, I adored the character overall and she made me laugh. So I'm not THAT mad, heh.

I got $85.00 tonight for guessing Best Picture, Director, Actress, Supporting Actor, Original Screenplay, Art/Set Direction, Costume Design, Original Score, Foreign Film, Sound Mixing, Original Song, Visual Effects, Makeup, Sound Editing, Animated Feature, Short-Subject Documentary and Full-Length Documentary right. Woot! Heh, I'm happy.

But...

I asked him to take out the price of movie tickets and take me to The Station Agent instead. I've been wanting to see that movie for SO long, you have no idea, heh. And I think he said yes, so...WOOT again, lol.

Well, I better go! Goodnight!

OMG!!! I'm so pissed right now! I was supposed to call at 4:00 after practice to get a ride home and my dad's friend called RIGHT AT 4:00!!! So then my mom's like, "Tell him to call back," or whatever, and my dad just keeps talking...TILL 4:50!!!!! Yeah, right when I get home, FINALLY, after staying at school for that time, my dad switches to his cell phone. How FRICKIN conveniant!

Okay...that's my little venting session for the day heh.

Now, because I'm bored, here's who I think will win the Oscars for the night (and yes Michelle, by Oscar I mean Academy Award *laughs jokingly*).

( Predictions of Winner )

Oh, and along with my whole personal ballot, here are my top ten favorite movies I recommend to EVERYONE out there. They're so good. Some are coming out on DVD, the ones you probably haven't heard of, so next time you go to Blockbuster, consider these. I find them all to be great (with Lost in Translation being the ultimate masterpiece, of course, lol).

1. Lost in Translation
2. In America
3. Girl With a Pearl Earring
4. Mystic River
5. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
6. Cold Mountain
7. 21 Grams
8. Whale Rider
9. House of Sand and Fog
10. Kill Bill: Volume 1

( If you're really bored, I listed 15 more...yes...I have a lot of time at the moment, heh )

Ack...I have to go change. Bye!

You are Sylvia Plath - a fiery bombshell with a
keen wit, and a gift for lyric poetry. You
will forever alter the literary canon with your
mind bending imagery, your sardonic wit, and
the mythology you build around yourself. You
are a voice to be reckoned with.


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Score! She's my favorite poet! I'm so glad I got her. *smiles widely*

But I hope that doesn't mean my life is going to end with my head in an oven! *shudders*

I'm going to kill time this morning and follow in the footsteps of franticlovepoet by posting my choices for the Oscars this year (meaning who I would nominate if I were AMPAS). I'll post an honorable mention for each acting category, as well. Just in case it just looks like I'm lising in no perticular order, number 1 is the "winner" and the rest are all in order of what came closest.

(NOTE: I have not seen all of the eligable films yet)

( If I Ran the Oscars... )

The OSCARS are tonight! Yay!

I went out with nylin today, it was really fun. We went all throughout town. lol...this old lady thought we were trying to kill her dog!!! We just said hi to it or something, because we thought it was my old dog. And she was like, "If it goes across the street it will be hit by a car! It could die!!!" And we we're like..."Sorry, uh...so...sor sorry..." Heh, good times.

Then we went to Watts Music. I bought a single by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. I loved the three songs that were on there. nylin (okay, it's easier to say Madsy, heh) bought some Jazz. Woot! lol

Then we ate "linner" at Mi Pueblos. omg the burritos there are HUGE! We saw Micheal Cusack, Eric Eisberg and Preston Hatfield there eventually and Preston and Eric were there just to see if they could finish an entire Padre Macho burrito. It's HUGE! I don't even know how they fit it on the already huge plates, lol. I don't know how it turned out, we left for Starbucks to be picked up and have hot chocolat after a while. Heh, if you finish a whole Padre Macho, they take your picture and put you on "The Wall." lol, I'll be on there some day, heh.

I'm home down. I was going to go to Blockbuster and rent Pieces of April. But my parents didn't watch the last of three DVDs we had rented (Runaway Jury). So we're going to wait till tomorrow (when the Indie Spirit Awards are on!!! I hope Shohreh Aghdashloo wins for Best Supporting...but if she's up against Patty Clarkson or Holly Hunter, she might not. I forgot who the nominees were. I'll post them sometime.)

Well...I have a survey to repost because I finished it.

Oh wait! At creative writing club today at lunch, satanspetcynic (Selena) wrote an AMAZING poem. The prompt was, "A drunk man walks into a bar and sits right next to you and thinks your his old buddy and starts to tell you 'the truth.' Write about what 'the truth' is." And she ended it so beautifully! I'm telling you right now, that has to be the most inspiring piece of writing that I've heard in while from someone my age. She has a real talent. I bet she'll go far with it! If you're reading this Selena, *hugs*, thanks for filling me with such a great emotion.

Anyways...here's the finished survey. It's really fun! It brings back so many memories about like the old days! :)

( Survey )

rosygemini will like this. She likes British stuff, heh.

My very British name is Damian Cavendish.
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West Side Story practice was pretty fun. At the end, I was cleaning up light bulbs. And...well...I have a tendency to drop and break things...and I dropped and broke one of the light bulbs, heh. So I was cleaning it up and I cut my finger a little. Then when everything was cleaned up and I threw away all the trash, I went to get a piece of b-day cake (I can't remember whose b-day it was) and then I spilled the plastic forks on the table. Then...me and Jessica we're attempting to clean them up and they kept falling off of the table.

I swear...I'm the biggest klutz in the country. lol...I NEED HELP!

Bye!

I'm listening to "Cruel" by Tori Amos right now. That's an awesome song.

Anyways, I'm going out tomorrow with Madsy. We're just going to walk around town and see what comes along. WE COULDN'T THINK OF ANYTHING!!! lol

Anyways...I have West Side Story practice today at 6:00 till 9:00. I keep screwing up "Cool." I play the vibes on that song. Anyone whose heard that song before knows that it's an incredibly difficult part. I'm worried I'm giong to mess up during the show. Wish me luck for the first weekends of March!

I have to finish my Van Gogh presentation today. He was insane!!! But I'll post about that tomorrow after I've screwed over my french grade with a sickiningly bad presentation (I suck at speaking in front of people...I get so nervous).

Uh...I have a poem and two quiz type things to post. So here we go!

( Calypso )

( Box Question )

( Survey )

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Tired...very...tired...

nylin...do you have an email address?

My Big Fat Obnoxious Fiance turned out well.

Yay!

I found an old poem of mine today. I don't like it too much right now. But it's workable. It's a variation on a poem I did a LONG time ago and it's better than that version, but it's still pretty bad. I'll save it, though.

( Father Time )

The line breaks are atroscious and the puncuation, word choice and structure are just wrong. I'll fix it, don't worry. :-D

I wrote some notes down about my English class today, some strong images. I'm slowly gaining my creativity back. So here is the first draft of Shrooms Walk Beside Me (heh).

( Shrooms Walk Beside Me )

That's going to take some work. I felt that in my attempt to desribe some of the high kids that come into my class every other day at most, it seemed like I was trying to insult them. I want to fix that. I'm not attacking anyone, don't worry.

Hm...I'm so tired. I finished From the Choirgirl Hotel just now...so I have no music! Oh wait...I can start it over, lol.

Well, I'm going to go. I have nothing to really talk about today. Bye!

(Ack...I was just about to fix something, but I don't have spell check anymore...grrr...)

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Wow...that's a frickin awesome picture. My inner faerie is AUTUMN (or fire, whichever one, it doesn't matter)! Beautiful...

I'm so tired and bored...I'm going to do more quizzes.

If you would like me to LJ-CUT them, just comment and I'll do so.




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Well...West Side Story practice wasn't too bad. We had to take ALL of the percussion section over to the student center. VERY heavy. lol...but at least it's done! But then we have to take it back on Sunday. Grrr...

Not much else to do. I do have homework! But I might save that for tomorrow. But do I really want to waste my day doing Biology?

Ack...so tired.

(rosygemini, can you burn me that HIM cd? Sorry for the trouble...if you can't that's alright!)

You're Invisible Man!

by Ralph Ellison

Most of your life, people have either ignored you or told you that you
were wrong. You've been duped, mistreated, misled, and neglected. Maybe it was because
of your race, or some other uniqueness that people were quick to condemn, but now you
just want to crawl into a hole and disappear. After all, nobody knows your name. But
you just might speak for everyone.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Grrr...I have to spend my second to last free day at West Side Story practice for three long hours. Then I have to do homework (because I just remembered I had some, I thought I didn't all week...and now I'm just like, "NO! Why why why...").

franticlovepoet, can you please comment with some of your movie suggestions so I have a list for next time I go to Blockbuster. I'm going to be renting Pieces of April (for Patricia Clarkson, of course), and I need to be reminded of what else to rent. Thanks!

GRRRRRRRRRR!

I just wrote the best poem I've written in over two weeks and instead of hitting copy so I could post it on this one place I hit PASTE!!!!!!! So everything was ERASED!!!! I spent twenty minutes moving slowly through it. Trying to be careful. Trying to think up the right images. And eventually, I spent a little more time trying to think of the perfect ending. I DID! I was SO happy! The piece made me smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS SOOOOO FRICKIN HAPPY!!!!! BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I had to press PASTE! O...M...G...I'm SO mad right now! I hate to admit this, but my eyes were welling up! It hurts so much to spend all that time on a poem and know that it's actually good and then just see it go away within a second. I can't even remember most of the images I had chosen!!!!

*cries...is depressed*

1. Which is worse: to die without love, or have your true love die?
I would say to die without any love at all. Love can be a lot of things: family, a wife, a friend. If I was dying knowing well I didn't have any of the three, I would be depressed beyond end. I can't imagine what it would feel like. Maybe pure torture...

2. Do you have someone you really look up to, as a role model?
Since I'm a Christian, I'd have to say Jesus. But of this question means here on earth, like a living, breathing, currently-living person, I'd have to say no one. I don't really have an all-out role model.

3. What are five of your life goals?
-To write a novel.
-To direct a film.
-To get an Academy Award nomination for SOMETHING (but that's a long shot, lol)
-To go to a third-world country and see what it's like first-hand.
-To fall in love.

4. If you could do whatever you pleased, how would you spend everyday for the rest of your life?
Writing, painting, watching a movie and directing part of my own movie.

5. What do you think is the worst way to die?
It's between dying in the mouth of a shark out in the middle of the sea, a plane crash, and a pick axe (or just a plain axe, either way it would still suck).



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Green

Hope is the whale
riding green saddles
of liquid,
rolling and folding
raising mist's banner.

"I'm here. I'm here."

The wake, the crashing
against sands and rocks,
molding earth's appendages
until there are fingers,
granite-made,
praising what made her.

"I'm here. I'm here."

I just saw the film 25th Hour and I must say, it was a fine fine piece of artistry. Although...the ending was great and everything...but was Spike Lee overdoing the "monologue-plus-images of what they're speaking of" thing in the last five minutes? Although it, overall, had a nice effect, I found it to be a bit unneccessary (maybe even unrealistic to a certain degree, but I think that's the point...possibly). Anyways...

...I basically would put it number two or three on my top ten list of films from 2002. It was THAT good. I loved 94% of it (which is an A in my book).

The acting was also incredible. The supporting actor in the film, not Philip Seymor Hoffman (who was great in his own right)...but the other best friend, Frances (I think was his name), was just amazing. One of the better performances from '02.

And the last aspect I need to point out is the cinematography. It was very realistic. It added a lot to the film's mood and some of the shots were incredible (like the benches along the river in NYC...very beautiful). The man who photographed this film also did Frida and 21 Grams. One day, he'll win an Oscar (but for now, the Academy doesn't seem to go for the "gritty" look).

If you like good movies, this one's worth checking out.

Dinner on a Foggy California Night

The steak is begging
on medium-cooked knees,
"Please, please,
don't eat these
tender good strips
of red, black and grey?
Please?"

But I aim my knife
and cut under the shins.
My belly's too empty
for sympathy.

The San Francisco nights
move me onto dessert.
The green chopstick rays
reflect off of the bay
and conduct my movements
in two-four.

"One, two. One, two."
I speed up. The fog drifts
onto the Transamerica
Pyramid ear tempting
with gambler fingers
to dance my way through that plate,

"One, two. One two."

It could just be too late
to samba onto the balcony.

Dinner on this night
in California,
fresh as the near-by ferry's
paint: Red, black and grey.

Bill comes.
I bid my fork, "Good day,"
move astray onto balcony
after dock after wake from boats
making love to the ebony corset
of sea. Thread of kelp
curling open
baring a breasted seafloor.

The bay's back in the nude by morning.
Low-tide,
I'm in my beddy-by,
the seagulls cry

"Breakfast!"

***

Okay, this seams COMPLETELY cheesy to me, lol. HELP?!?!?!

Well...

I'm at Michelle's house. **she says hi!!!**

Fun fun fun. I just finished watching Sleepy Hollow! I'm so excited! That was such a good movie...with lots of TIM BURTON-ness surging through its veins. We're going to watch Lost in Translation soon. I wouldn't let her watch it until I was there, heh.

Anyways, this really good actress named Miranda Richardson was in Sleepy Hollow and I swear I had seen her before. So I checked this website and I checked her filmography and she was in The Hours (as Virginia's sister), so I HAVE seen her before. Of course, The Hours is one of my fave movies. Yay!

Anyways...she's going to be in The Phantom of the Opera this year. I'm excited. I think she's playing Madame Curi (I think that's her name). Can't wait!

Well, I have to go now! So bye! :)

So I was right about American Idol. Lisa Leuchner was the best. And as far as the top three of the night goes, the only other two that were any good were people we hadn't heard from before.

But I think the top three tomorrow night (for the top three votes) is going to be made up of Lisa Leuchner, Randy's "Hip-hop girl", and the first guy (the football player).

But seriously, Lisa was the only one that showed her stuff with a great song. I'm so happy. I LOVE her voice. She gave me chills.

Yay! I painted a lot more of my "Hills of My Neighborhood" painting...and guess what? It has texture! It has realistic coloring! It has more than one dimension! Heh! Last time I tried to paint the hills (w/ acrylics, not oils like this time), Everything was like the same color. It was sickeningly bad, lol. But this time...**looks around surprised**...IT'S ACTUALLY PRETTY GOOD!!! **does happy dance**

Heh, that sounded totally conceded. But I don't care. I'm proud of myself! lol :)

Okay, so American Idol starts soon. And I say Lisa Leuchner (red hair, Simon said she "needs to lose weight") is going to do the best along with one of the people we haven't heard from at all (because there's always a surprise). But I got to go now, so bye!

(Oh yeah! charisma!!! I got your chapbook and I've been reading it! Thanks for the encouraging note on the first page **hugs**)

I nabbed this little survey from yossarian_22. It's fun. People should do it! Heh! :)

( Survey )

Ack...I knew I shouldn't have posted about my views when it comes to any sort of political situation like the homosexuality thing. I'll just make that a friends only entry and leave it for people to tear up, heh. Certain people enjoy doing that to me. I've always been the kind of person where I say one thing and then people tend to argue about it. It's kind of annoying. But I've learned to live with it. I just need to keep my mouth shut.

Anyways...I just woke up!!! I'm so mad! It's like one o'clock and I just woke up. I wasted half of my day in bed! Grrr...that pisses me off. I wish my parents would have woke me up early or something. I wanted waffles...heh.

Uh...nothing to do today. No one to hang out with. Nothing to do at home (I've nearly watched all the movies I haven't seen before in my house that I'm allowed to watch on my own...except for like one or two, which I don't really want to watch right now).

I was listening to this Erika Badu cd last night called Worldwide Underground (ahaha...some might be surprised I even own something like that...but I do like the whole "neo-soul" thing, mostly Alicia Keys) and I thought it was REALLY GOOD. I'm gonna listen to it again later, or something. Maybe...heh. Trying to figure out things to do.

Any suggestions?

American Idol was surprisingly good tonight. I don't think I've ever seen a more consistant night of the final 32 thus far (overall all three seasons)! It was really good. I'm voting for Katie (jazz singer who was AMAZING) and Fantasia (who was even MORE AMAZING and has an awesome name). But both lines are busy right now and haven't let up for a while, so I'll just have to wait my turn, heh.

Didn't do much today. I played piano, sang a little, wrote A LOT (check out my poetry journal canticle77, there are 2 new pieces THAT I NEED HELP ON!!!). And I listened to a lot of music. Did homework. Talked to Justine, franticlovepoet, stuckinasquare and Hannah online and that lasted for a while. Hm...what else did I do. I watched some TV.

No painting today.

And it turns out that the three tests I freaked out about last Friday that I took (last Friday, heh) and though I did horrible turned out surprisingly well:

-Biology: 25/35=B
-Algebra 2: 22/23=B+
-World History: 24/28=B

I'm so happy! I thought it would be more like F, C then D. Heh, I guess not. Yay!

I have an Algebra test tomorrow on something really easy! So that should be over quick, which means I must bring music and a set of good pens so I can do more hand art. That kills A LOT of time! Lol...and if I forgot, I've been reading Cold Mountain and The Illustrated Man (again) at school a lot lately, so it's all good.

Ahhh...I'm listening to the best song right now. I'm gonna post the lyrics.

( Adrian )

Brilliant song. It's soooo sad, too.

Everyone cross their fingers that Katie and Fantasia will get in tomorrow! I can't wait!

Nothing interesting happened today.

Except...I was talking to franticlovepoet online and he told me ALL about DOGVILLE!!!!!!! I seriously CANNOT WAIT for this movie.

I also can't wait for Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Anyone whose been to an indie theater lately (or to a Focus Features film, or just an indie movie) will have seen the crazily beautiful and genius trailer for it!!! I can't wait!

There are a bunch more I could keep talking about, but I'm gonna continue talking to people online. Bye!

Here are two poems I wrote a while ago that seem a lot better to me now than they did when I first wrote them. Comments/critiques?

( Two Poems )

This is just a concert survey I nabbed (heh, I love that word) from stuckinasquare. I'm bored, so it's fun, heh.

( Survey )

You know what sucks? I don't know how to put pictues on my entries. So I'm just going to but the URL address so you can all know what I'm talking about.

I want to see this movie called Japanese Story. It looks really good. Nate on my favorite site really liked it. And he as good taste as far as I'm concerned (he recognized that White Oleander shouldn't have been shrugged off at awards season like it was, namely Michelle Pfieffer). So yeah, it looks good. I saw the trailer. Looks good. It sounds like they're going crazy over it in Australia. And apparently, Toni Collette is very good in it, reportedly an outstanding performance. But it was released on December 31 this last winter. THAT means, Collette didn't get any chance of an Oscar nod because they've been announced and no one's really seen the movie thus far (unless you live in LA or NYC). Actually, I think it's playing somewhere nearby, so I might as well see it now because, knowing NoCal's record with indies, it will be outta here in an instant.

Ack...three hours of West Side Story. Somebody shoot me! Heh...

Sunday Morning Routine

Just another chrysalis
attached to the ground,
prayer roots snaking
longingly up to heaven,
taking root in the passing cloud
only hoping to spread
seed among those helpless
pond ducks
cluttering in feather-
brown pieces.

Today sucked.

I slept in. Boredome...painted, but couldn't figure out how to make my hills the right color. Then my parents hit me with a planned trip to dinner and a movie. Well...we had to rush at dinner, then we went to THE CONTAINER STORE (!!! omg...so boring, heh). And I was supposed to go to Wherehouse in the mall we were at instead of that store, but they closed it and now, instead of good music, there's a store called A Child's Delight. Theeeennn...we went off to the movie that made us rush through dinner because we needed to have time for the Container Store. And it sucked. Oh yeah, the movie's called Big Fish. I mean...Jessica Lange and Albert Finney were really good...but Bill Crudup...you just wanted to plow your hands into the screen and shake some humanity and life out of him, lol! He was THAT bad. And the rest of the movie lacked anything special. Some funny moments...but overall I'd give it a C-.

But on the way home, I listened to a CD I haven't listened to in a while that I came across at the beginning of this week: Pieces of You by Jewel. Very quiet cd, but still good. And one song moves me beyond belief: "Adrien". It's genius. Although her poetry's not that good, her music is powerful in all aspects. In fact, I'm listening to that song right now! So sad...

Anyways...not much else to do tonight. It is 11:00 after all. I am gonna watch SNL tonight. It has KAREN FROM WILL AND GRACE ON THERE!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited! She's so funny, I love her.

But I wish I was allowed to watch MAD TV. But of course, everyone else in the world watches it and talks about it, so my parents refuse to let me see it, heh. I can't wait till I'm on my own. I feel like I'm in a birdcage, tormented all the time by outsiders who'll never understand me while I sqauk for attention in a language that can never be translated.

Enough with silly metaphors. I've g2g. Bye!

Sorry for this superfluous entry. I'm applying to another community that is just for critiques and I have to apply through email. So I have to get three of my best poems on here.

( Three Poems )

My Saturday morning's aren't very produtive. I slept in and my dog came in and licked my hands for ten minutes, heh. I didn't care, I was too tired to do anything. I read a little, then went on livejournal while my mom watched Stepmom in the same room. Hmmm...

And now they're making me go see Big Fish tonight instead of The Company, which I really really want to see. For some reason, the former doesn't seem as great to me as it seemed like two months ago, heh. It lost its steam.

At least I get to go to Chevys and the mall before hand. I'm gonna go to Walden Books and Suncoasts and...maybe Electronic Boutique because I'm going to go back on my word and actually pay money for a videogame: Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicles. That's the only Final Fantasy I'll probably ever get to play all the way through on my own system because it's for GameCube, and I fell for Nintendo's gimmick rather than buying the PS2 or the X-Box like I should've when I actually cared about video games.

Okay, I'm done rambling.

Ahhh...bask in the wonder that is my new icon (by giruff). It's soooooo cute!

Kung Pow has to be one of, if not, the funniest movies ever made. I swear, that curly-Q lady has terets. Out of nowhere she makes the wierdest noises. "Oh, I love you chosen one, but I can't leave O-E-O-E-O-E..." Lol!!! I was laughing SO HARD. I haven't laughed like that in ages. I'm gonna watch it again eventually.

Thanks to leftcoast_raven for letting me borrow it. Uber fun.

Winter concert tonight. I did okay. The band did really good though. Grrr...Mira and Natalie abandoned me again and left when they were supposed to help clean up the percussion section and put it back in the band room (they are percussionists after all...jeeze! lol). Thanks to nylin (GO TIMPINI RACES!), Leilani, all the other freshmen (including other percus. Vitor), Carrie and anyone else I forgot for helping me.

So we played at the end after intermission, which means that I just hung out with theshysilent0ne, mrlivingston, Nicole, Leah, leftcoast_raven and Julio the entire time. Good fun!

Anyways...next Wednesday is the first day I'm able to get my permit. I might go on that day. WISH ME LUCK PEOPLES! **crosses fingers**

The open mic went pretty good today. Lots of academy people were there, and a few people that I invited (thanks for coming mercifuldeath16.

But I hate that when I read my stuff, no one seems to listen. But I know it's because my stuff isn't funny, clever, and doesn't have any obvious rhyming in it. Not easy enough to process. Plus, the one I read myself, I Held My Smoking Gun, is really long and I probably lost a lot of attention.

It was basically very discouraging.

Anyways, here's that performance piece thing I was talking about. Look past the obvious detail that will disturb many and realize how profound the artist's idea is:

( Performance Peace )

So there you go! I hope I didn't scare anyone away, heh. I realize it's a touchy subject with some.

Well...I have a concert tonight for band...ugh. I hate it. It's so boring. At least that one song we're playing, Walden, sounds really great. It's such a poetic song.

I can't wait to study art and photography next year.

-David

Today's edition of THINGS I HATE (**laughs at self**):

-taking the trashcans up my enormous hill. Why must I live on a big hill with two halves of a driveway (that's very steep), and a gate between the two? Grrr...heh.

-a poem by Jewel called "I Guess What I Wanted Was"

-finally needing something and then for the first time...not being able to find it, heh (I know we've all been there)

-cliche

There you go.

You know, I want people to see this "I Guess What I Wanted Was" poem. It's so straightforward, cliche (so this thing makes the list twice, lol), and it's just all been done before, grrr...she's failed me, heh.

( I Guess What I Wanted Was )

She's resorted to the level of a sixth grader fawning over Justin Timberlake, heh. Although, she's a grown woman. At least I can trust that she was really feeling something sincere when she wrote it, something that affected her deeply and something that she'll carry forever.

But don't forget that Jewel has some good moments. Case in point: "The Road."

( The Road )

I didn't think the first stanza was that great, but the second was amazing! I love the image of love yearning to catch up to her. Like she's left it behind, but even from far away, she notices the detail of its crimson red dress dragging painfully in the dirt.

Ahhh...I'm relaxed now. I love immersing myself in art.

I'm gonna post another art thing I found in my art book tomorrow. I found it to be such a profound performance piece. It was so realistic and important. I can't wait to share it with people (although it will scare some away, I'm sure; there's a little detail that might bother people).

Yay...time for Survivor! Woot!

(no one tell me what happened)

Come Out

Wheat grabs your hand
with a grace
unheard of. Between the hemlock,
the fern,
you brought each tip of your lips
up to one ear, the other,
a rosebud crescent.
The pale moon is jealous.

But it's when you pulled
the baby blue thread,
dyed it red
and jumped rope between the trees
that I sank
deep into the mausoleum
just like the one
of Cairo's past.

Your mild laughter echoed
up to play hopscotch
in the chalk-line sky.
And the distracting,
blurred wash of clouds
pulled you over the switch-
blade curl of string.

Down, down, down,
caught only
in a scar
hidden under a Savannah grass,
the black sweater.

I LOVE SCOOTER GIRL!!!

There, heh, I said it.  I'm good now...

I'm so sad she's leavin'.  That's too bad.  American Idol would have been great if she'd staid.  But really, I'm fine with everyone who made it.  For instance, I thought Lisa Lauchner (sp?) had a great voice.  I think the outsider girl's okay.  Fantasia has an awesome name and an awesome voice.  Pen Salesmen guy is cool.  And I think that one girl got in the model.  I didn't like her...o well...so confused.

American Idol's one of the best shows ever, heh.  Uber cool. 

I REALLY need help with my poem I Held My Smoking Gun. If you want to help out or just take a look, go here. Thanks to anyone who can help! :)

Yay! I finished watching American Splendor! That's definately one of the best movies this year. It's out...so all of you go rent it now!!! Grrr....heh, just kidding. But seriously, go rent it. It's SO good. You have no idea.

Anyways...on the "making of" featurette, there was THE tackiest shirt I've ever seen, hehe. It's completely black. And in white letters it says, "I'd rather be masturbating." Actually, that's probably how a lot of the people at the comic book convention they were taping felt at the time, heh. I laughed, but I still think it's tacky. But I still think it's funny...ack...I don't know what to think. I DO know it was a shirt though **leans back realizing he is very clever** hehe, just kidding. I'm not conceded or anything.

Wierd...my sister is talking to me like a normal person. She's been living in upstate NY for about two years now. So she's grown up and everything and has realized that I'm not out to get her and that she shouldn't hate me, heh.

-David

Today really sucked. I was tired. I didn't eat anything...well...except one bon bon, heh, which was quite good.

During lunch, I sat by myself and drew on my hand. Then I read more of Cold Mountain. Ack...my friends keep going off campus and leaving me and they don't even tell me or anything. I've completely lost connection with them. It sucks. That's happened to me too many times for it to be a small thing. It hurts.

The exit exams were canceled because of a gas leak in the gym. That was a little disappointing. Heh, I didn't get to watch more of Monstars Inc. in bio. So sad. But we did get to do some DNA replication thing with RNA and what not. It was a ditto. We drew like kindergardeners after. Good fun.

Cause of the gym leak thing, PE met in the library and we just had a study period in which I did algebra homework. Yay. And I did that with Doug and Claire. Claire's funny. Again...good fun. And during the class I found Madsy and I put my hands over her eyes to say "Guess who." But I messed up and couldn't find her eyes and I put my hands over her mouth and forehead and stuff while I rambled on about how I was screwing up. After five minutes of her laughing and me being frustrated, I found her eyes and said, "Guess who?" And she said, "David!" Once again...good fun.

Heh. :)

Um...no homework today. I'm excited. I need to write some today. And I need to watch the last section of American Splendor, which is a really good movie by the way. I still have to watch The Dancer Upstairs. It's supposed to be good. I want to see Javier Bardem's performance. It's supposed to be really really really great. Can't wait. I also have to watch American Idol.

Bye.

I changed my user pictures. Although I haven't listened to them in over two months I'd say, I still like their icons. Evanescence sort of has an image I like. I don't know...I know people call them sell outs and everything, but I'm okay with that. They icons are still awesome.

Ack...I still feel really really bad.

-David

(Oh yeah...hehe...me and my friend were freaking out about DeGrassi today to piss off everyone. we were like "OMG! Manny's pregnant with Craig's baby!" yay...good fun)